Random Thoughts
I stare at the piece of C++ code involing pointers and arrays that makes no sense to me. "Argument char* argv[] is a pointer to an array of char*? But char* blah[]={"as","bs"} is an array of char*...?". Then I'm told that we can't pass arrays, only their addresses. So we play with them differently(in different scopes). I could have finished this problem quickly. But I didn't. I have to understand it. It is imperative for my sanity.
My mother is online telling me how bad my ranks are in CAPS. She says I won't get admission in any good college in any good subjects, which are sadly the same things I like. But I don't care. I just know I'll end up fine after 4 years. It's just a gut feeling. Four years later everyone will shut up.
CET results are out. I haven't gotten a good rank. Not like it matters. I'm not interested in any of those colleges. As long as I'm not surrounded by arrogant, stupid, ridiculus folk, I'm fine in any decent college.
It's 11 AM. I get up around now. Now, it's 1 PM. Wait, it's actually 1AM. Day almost over already? What did I do so far?
I'm talking with a friend. He's the smartest fellow I personally know. "Any problems?" he asks. "Try mathschallenge.net", I reply. He's online on GTalk. "Great. I'm going to beat you", he says. I feel that familiar tinge of competition. The urge to be the best. A feeling I haven't felt in one and half years. And then it dies away. I hope I haven't toally become numb with all this meaningless studies. There's still hope, still hope.
12 drops:
C++... huh!
I still remember my first year when I was struggling with that book "Let us C" in my hand, struggling to understand what the guy is actually saying. It's always full of paradoxes, like the one you presented. Today, I dont remember how to write a simple program. I remember the printf and scanf stuff though.
Ah...chill.
//Its 11AM. I get up around now. Now, it's 1 PM. Wait, it's actually 1 AM. Day almost over already? what did I do so far?? //
I didnt understand.
@atlantean
You should have used some other book. That book is terrible.
@equi
Time passes
/gqkwxzm
Its amazing that you have taken the news of not-so-gud-ranks with gud spirits..
But y is the zest in you dying???
..Me
Hey, are you alright??
I mean you sound so low and depressed.
It happens with marks and results....chod do usse.
Perk up! Dont let studies get you so down! Its going to come. Its going to go! In the end, it doesnt even matter.
And about which college you go to...I think people make the place. As long as you got good guys around you, you'll do okay.No one cares that much where you came from when they are recruiting for a job(leaving out the IIT, etc, of course)!
hey
i just linked to you, also added your blog on Indian Blogger's List
it would be kind of you if you could link back to http://indiblogs.blogspot.com
chill maadi...U will land up in a gr8 coll in a branch you desire..
I just finished reading all your posts....a big time procrastinator( donno if that word exists).....some of those links were pretty good, and some of the posts were daring....cheers!! And GTD, will read that book after july 15.
Hey, your SAT scores are pretty good.....why don't you try going abroad?
Indian education sucks.....except for those elite schools.
And busy huh?? no updates.
I think your AIEEE score will get you into a decent college. Neway wat matters more is you not how you are judged. ?I am glad you have taken it all in good spirits.
@rose
Zest not dying. Zest coming back.
@strictly
Yea, that's what ppl tell me.
@ankit
Done
@equi
You read ALL my posts. Neat.
I'm not going abroad because it's too expensive. I'll be going abroad for my Masters' Degree.And by then I'll have my Greencard :D I'm think I'll get into BITS,Pilani. Atleast I hope so.
I'm not busy. I'm just bored and i have nothing to post about. There might be an update this sunday about my new laptop and camera.
@tanvi
The college may be decent, but it's the course I'm after(CS,EE or IT).
/hgojw
Im Glad..
:))))
..Me
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